I guess it's over...

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biowolfbabee and I are no longer together in a relationship.
It was decided Friday afternoon.  We've been pondering this for a while because of school and how we really need to focus on our school work instead of nourishing a relationship.  I really didn't want to because... Well, because I wasn't ready.  Even if he told me that it was for my own good.  I believe him when he says it.  I know him pretty well.  So basically, I've been crying and depressed since then.  I can't get my mind off of things... but in attempts to do so, I've put things he gave me into a box and tore up all the drawings that I drew of him and me together.  They just hurt too much to look at.  Even though this wasn't a typical breakup (where the love is practically one sided in the end), it's still torture on my soul.  o_o  Especially because I've been saying and doing really stupid things, most of which I wholeheartedly regret.  For example, we were texting and I said something kind of stupid... something that was completely untrue.  Once I saw that he read my messages and didn't respond, I suggested that we just stay away from each other for a couple of weeks to get over everything for just a little while.  I now realize that this could turn out badly.  With all that time to himself to think, he could end up hating me in the duration of 2 weeks.  Maybe that's for the best.  Besides... I can't blame him if he hates me.  After all then things I said.
He said earlier today and yesterday that he still loves me and that he's only doing this because he loves me.  I hope that he still feels that way later.  And he said that there's a chance that we may get back together sometime in the future.  Like sometime after we're COMPLETELY finished with school.  That'll take years... by then, he may have a new girlfriend.  But regardless... I'd still wish him well.
I really do hope that there is a chance that we can get back together again.  Even if those chances are looking really slim.  </3
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